Thursday Dec 9

Kelvin & I went to PingYi Secondary School for the soccer camp event. Oh gosh! I oversleep due to all that partying last night and I’m late for nearly half an hour. Feel so paiseh when I arrived at the school. We took some photos of the kids dribbling the ball and posing in front of the goalpost for pictures. Some of the kids there are so adorable & cute especially with their mini soccer jersey!!

Kelvin & I went for breakfast in Bedok before heading back to office. Finally we get to see the new colleague replacing Jason. Before I met her, I thought she is those tom-boyish type of girl with cropped short hair, tan skin with muscular build. Janet’s and my initial images of her were all wrong. She is quite a pretty, petite lady with brown dyed hair and she wore a skirt to work on her first day.

Hmm.... I think I no longer hold the title of the prettiest female in my club.

Short meet-up with Yanyi after work today. Actually I don’t really feel like meeting up with her because I’m really very tired and I’m being deprived from my sleep after all that  partying in Zouk yesterday.

We ended up walking around in Suntec City, Carrefour, ordered some food and sat on a bench in Suntec City chit chatting.

I’m meeting Eric tomorrow. Oh man!! I really need a break & rest!!

Friday, Dec 10

Feel that I have been running all over island wide. I had company’s recreational activities today and it is being held in Yishun. So, I shared a cab with Aslena, Ruiying and myself to Yishun. Over there, we had fun trying out the shooting range and facilities over there. I had trial run on shooting and I’m embarrassed by my results. I didn’t managed to capture and shot the targets while the others all are able to shot the targets. My card appears ‘clean’ without any holes(your card will have cards if  you managed to shot the cards) I’m embarrassed to show it to anyone and one of the lifeguard-Jimmy said I’m definitely a Bobo shooter(lousy shooter)

I’m lazy and doesn’t have the patient at aiming properly and hence that explains my ‘perfect score’. I decided not to make a scene of myself and not going to take part in the shooting contest. Luckily I didn’t, because they will announce the person with the lowest score and everyone will laugh and came to know about it.

The bobo shooter turns out to be Audrey and she is embarassed about it. I could see her blushing but she got something in return for being the Bobo shooter.  A $20 voucher from Cold Storage. Wow! Not bad in being the last  =P

I had to rush to Simei to borrow ‘The Grinch’ DVD from there... Imagine my horor when they told me I need to put a deposit of $40 for the DVD alone. Sucks! Luckily I’m able find the VCD ‘Before Sunrise’! I have been searching for this VCD for soooo longggg.... Yeah~ Can’t wait to watch the movie. Supoosingly agreed to meet up with Eric in Cityhall for movies.  As Eric will be having dinner with his ex colleagues, he will be late. Hence we are unable to watch 9plus show in Marina Square.  We agreed to meet up in Plaza Singapura at 10pm to catch ‘Shutters’. I went over to Esplanade library wanting to borrow a few DVD tiitles when I realised the library closes at 9pm. That sucks! Hence I took a train to Plaza Singapura.

Eric was waiting impatiently for me and I arrived on the dot. There were only single seats left for ’Shutters’ and we ended up deciding to go to Marina Square(again!) just to catch that movie. Imagine I had been rushing from Tampines to Yishun, to Simei for borrowing the DVD and went to Cityhall for intending to catch ‘Shutters’. After that to Plaza Singapura and back to Marina Square again. It has been a very ‘fruitful’ day for me.

Eric & I wanted to catch a bite before watching the movie but alas, heaven seems to be playing a trick on me today and it rained heavily. We couldn’t go anywhere and hence sat at the couch in Marina Square and chit-chat til the movie started.

It has been quite sometime since I last saw him. He updated me that he is quitting his job and will be starting work in JobStreet. I was dumbfounded for a moment. He just switched jobs six month ago and he is changing jobs again. Hmm.....

I finally get to watch ‘Shutters’ after hearing so much rave over it. Found it not very scary (because I was covering my eyes in most scary scenes =P) but the plot of the movie is not bad. The male lead is so good looking in the movie...he reminds me of my idol Ethan Hawke especially with his long hair and goatee.

Eric & I decided to go and grab some snacks from 7-11 before going to some quiet corner for chit chatting again.

He shared with me quite a number of secrets. An example is Kate is at risk from being fired from her company.... haha... I think she deserved it anyway.. I don’t like her all along.

We chat till 3.30am in the morning and I told him I can’t tahan anymore. I’m being deprived from sleep plus I got movie event tomorrow, hence, I need to sleep.

I took a cab home and it cost $17.90 after midnight charges. Sucks.... that is expensive man!

Saturday, Dec 11

Had my December movie screening today. Reach club at around 12.00pm.  Am anxious about the theatrette. I had tested the systems in theatrette yesterday and am dismayed to find that the DVD player is not working. I quickly asked William for help and luckily he managed to help me solved the technical problems. He told Audrey that he will be coming down to help me operate the systems as there are some switches where I shouldn’t touched etc.

I called William at around 12pm and he was at home. I asked him about the systems in theatrette and he said he will come down personally. I felt bad because he is not working on Saturday and had to come down all the way to teach me the systems and operations.

He came at around 1pm and teach me the stuffs. I’m praying that I will be able to grapple with the system after his teachings.

Kelvin came at around 1.30pm and he operated the system. I feel relieved everytime when he helped me out with all the technical aspect in theatrette. I’m an idiot in handling al the technical systems and operations.

The event ended at around 6.45pm. I stayed in office alone for a while to prepared my Pulau Ubin event the next day. I was afraid and started imagining things especially after I watched the horror flick ‘Shutter’.

I decided to left office quickly after I’m done with all my stuffs.

I was confused about where to go after my event. Benny send me an sms yesterday asking me out for movies. I didn’t agreed and gave him a vague answer as my events ends at 6.30pm and I don’t know whether I wanna hang out with him.

I was waiting for Benny’s reply for nearly half a day till I got fed up and decided to meet up with Eric. He needs to pass me back ‘Before Sunrise’ VCD. My mood is confusing and yet uncertain. I’m afraid of falling in love and I think I did better avoid Benny for a while.

I was on my way to Orchard when Eric send an sms to me saying he will be meeting up with his friend to watch soccer match. Fuck! Ithought I had some activities to do on Saturday night and he gave me this kinda reply at the last minute... Feeling kind of angry with him.

I meet up with Eric & one of his friend and we proceed to have dinner at lucky plaza foodcourt. Oh man! I hate to squeeze and fighting for space with the passer-bys in Orchard on weekend especially with the huge crowds moving along the whole stretch of Orchard Road.

I gave some excuse to them when I reached Wheellock palace as they intended to watch soccer match. I ended up spending my time browsing magazines in Borders before I headed home. Feeling super tired.....

Sunday, December 12

Sunday is usually the day where I anticipated the most on a typical week. However, I had to wake up rather early at around 10am. I had Chek Jawa event where I feared the most among all my Nov/Dec events. I’m worried about the bad weather(if it rains, Chek Jawa tour has to be cancelled and I need to think of back-up activities) and my incapability of handling large group of people. I usually hate doing tours yet I find it challenging and interesting sometimes.

I reached the club at around 11.45pm and proceed up to my office to settle some last minute stuffs for my Chek Jawa event. I went down later and proceed to check out Fleamarket at my club. I bought a bikini, sticker books, chocolates in the end and spend $33. Wow!!

My participants started coming at around 12.15pm and I had last minute changes to handle. Apparently, this member who registered 25 members for the tour with me told me only yesterday that 3 members could not come for the tour. I was abit pissed off. Can’t they inform me earlier? At least I can replace 3 members for the tour instead. I had nearly 2 pages of participants on waiting list for the Chek Jawa Tour! Not only that I had to redo all my arrangements pre-planned ahead as I need to ‘fill up the gaps’ by the 3 absentees. Sucks!

I was abit caught off-handed and ended up doing all the work myself on giving out itinerary list, handing out goodie bags, verify their names with my list. My new colleague-Ruying & Kelvin ended up sitting around doing nothing since I had no time to give them instructions on what to do plus I’m rather confused about having to do last minute amendments on my list for the 3 absentees.

We finally set off at around 12.45pm and proceed to board the bus. There was slight confusion as Driver Derrick is not around and being replaced by another driver. The driver seems ignorant in everything and I feel even more pissed off.

We reached the Changi Jetty at around 1.25pm and reached Pulau Ubin at 1.50pm. I told the members to have their own free & easy activities and gathered at the basketball court at 3pm for the Chek Jawa tour.

There was confusion again as there were shortage of volunteer guides for Chek Jawa Tour. Hence my pre-planned groupings of people are all mixed up. Luckily the Chek Jawa tour went on quite smoothly. My shoes got quite dirty after stepping around and got ‘stuck’ in the muddy field.

 
Evidence of how 'muddy' Chek Jawa is!

I learned quite alot of plants and different species of sea creatures from the tour. However, I’m too pre-occupied in making sure all the participants are within the group and doesn’t get too scattered & wandered around themselves that I doesn’t really listen to what the guides were talking.

    Pic of sea anatomy

I loved the laid-back feeling in Pulau Ubin and away from the rustle of busy cities. I’m abit interested to join the volunteers to learn more about all the plant and sea creatures in Chek Jawa.

After the Chek Jawa tour, we took a taxi back and I’m pissed off again when lots of members are dilly-dallying washing their shoes, going to washroom freshing up. Alot of time were wasted waiting for them.

Finally reached the club at around 6.30pm. That is like 1 hour later than estimated time. Anyway, I had dinner with Kelvin, Ruying before I headed home.

Am quite surprised to know that my home PC has been repaired and I could do my internet suftngs and updating of my blogs again. Yeah~

Monday, December 13, 2004

Monday again!! Well, not exactly feeling Monday blues because all my major events & projects such as Chek Jawa tour are over! Yeah~ Finally can relax and slack around for a bit.

Been quite busy in office. I was rushing to do paper work for my events and projects and also doing some planning for upcoming March school holidays events for next year.

Going to meet up with Yanyi & Celine in celebrating Celine’s 22^nd birthday.

Reached Bugis slightly later. Had our dinner at Ajisen Ramen. We ended up chit chatting till 10pm when the store started closing and we can sensed the waiters were like trying to chase us away.

We went over to MacDonald’s and chat till 11.30pm and not wanting to catch a cab and paying midnight charges, we went home relunctantly.

Saw a letter from Shiseido on my table when I gotten home. I opened it and realised I had won the Singapore Woman’s Weekly contest and hence gotten a $500 worth of Shseido’s products. Yeah~ But I also got headache about how to use up my mountain loads of skincare products at home. Sigh!

Wow... received yet another call from Visage Salon that I had won a free Body Beautiful treatment with them. I can't believe my luck! Winning 2 contest awards in the same month!  =)  

Friday, 3 Dec

My snorkelling event takes place today. Overall so far so good. There isn’t any cork up and I feel that I had improved tremendously in planning small scale in-house event. Great!

Irritated by one of the guy who called my direct line. As I’m the only one n the whole department, I’m responsible in handling all calls, answer enquiries on Kelvin’s and Audrey’s behalf. This particular guy called up wanting us to rent out our facilities to them. As Audrey is not around, I told him that he had to wait for Audrey to come back. He shots back saying if Audrey is on medical leave for 5 days, then the whole department no need to work? I feel insulted by his comments. He further pressed on saying he booked bowling alley in our club and the event is next Wednesday. Hence he can’t wait till Monday when Audrey is back. He asked me to speak to boss and come up with a

decision. My boss is ‘bo- chup’ type... asking my boss is just a waste of my time.. he doesn’t know anything about booking of facilities. I feel irritated and disgusted by this young guy’s demand. Hello? He need a favour from us and he is like demanding me to give him an answer by today. I’m not Audrey and hence not the decision maker. His irritating calls and demands spoilt my early morning’s beautiful mood.... I feel relieved when I called up Audrey and she decided not to agree on renting facilities to them. Great~ Save my trouble and who ask him to irritate me? If he pleads to me in a nicer way and not in a irritating manner, I might consider helping him. One lesson learned: If you need help from that person, treat them and speak to them nicely.

Feel upset by comments from colleagues. 4 of them said I had gained weight!! Hated it! Going to hit the gym later during game hours.

Gym colleague-Leonard gave me a massage during our ‘eat snake’ hours coz boss not around. Ha... I’m a ‘massage virgin’ and my body feel so tense when he massges me.. haha..

Aslena wanted me to join her for massage therapy at my club and I told her I will join later. I’m paiseh about my oily hair since they will be massaging my head and decided to check out after my gym session. I ended up never went for the massage therapy because I decided to save my $20 for my spree in Elizabeth Ardent warehouse sale tomorrow.

I meet up with the Cozycot members for a short dinner at Indo Chine Wisma. The atmosphere is nice and I loved the live band there... The lead singer has terrific voice but too badhe doesn’t look hot. Otherwise I will recommend him to go for Singapore Idol!

It was pleasant meeting and I was frustrated that I had missed out the Luxasia warehouse sale from their conversation. Sucks! The girls wanted to hit the club in Brix after dinner & I decided not to go since the cover charge is so expensive. $25 for entrance plus I’m saving money for my Elizabeth Ardent shopping spree!

Hanged around in Borders and read gossip tabloids, magazines and fashion magazines. I called up my brother and he is in town. Great! I can save money on my taxi fares. I meet up with him and he suggested going to Alijunied for supper. One of his male colleague keep on staring at me when I walked pass his lorry  and I showed his my displeased and black face to him coz I had been waiting for 30minutes for my brother. Later on, I found out from my brother that he is my senior from my secondary school but I don’t find him familiar. I was a geek in secondary school days and doesn’t interact nor checkout the guys in my secondary school either. No wonder he keepon staring at me when I walked past him.

We went to Aljunied coffeshop and it was kinda boring for me.. I don’t know any of them & I’m lazy to interact with them too...

They managed to end their conversation and I’m home by 2am. I’m looking forward to my Elizabeth Ardent shopping spree tomorrow!

Saturday, 4 Dec

My good friend, Yuhui’s birthday. It has been ages since we last see each other, last contacted each other but we always gave each other birthday wishes without fail every year. She is one of my best friend back in secondary school days and we used to chat on the phone for hours. All these changed ever since she has gotten attached with one of my male classmates. I feel neglected and jealous over her immersing in sweet ‘honeymoon period’ while I’m resorted to spending my future activities alone for most of the time.

The final breakdown for our friendship happens when we celebrated

New Year countdown in year 2000. She had just quarreled with her boyfriend and I ended up accompanying her to the Marina Bay coffeshop with just two of us. Once we reached there, her boyfriend sweet talked to her and they were back to their lovely couple state...

For the whole night, she neglected me and flunk herself into his boyfriend’s arm... I feel ‘cheated’, angry and a sense of betrayal... After that night, I vowed never to be on good terms with her...

I used to think back and wondered aloud whether did my jealousy
destroyed a perfect friendship with her? 4 years had passed and we were not closed anymore ever since that incident.....

Anyway, I’m glad I found good friends in poly such as Shiryee, Celine, Yanyi etc... You lost some & you gain some in certain parts of our life... I will always treasured true friendship.....

I awoke extra early today. I’m off today and
yet I dragged myself out of the bed and get dressed quickly. Elizabeth Ardent warehouse sale takes place in Suntec City today and I doesn’t want to miss it! I loved Elizabeth Arden products!

I reached Suntec City at around 9.30am and I already saw a queue lining up. Oh my! The sale starts officially at 10am... Typically kiasu Singaporeans(I’m one of them too)

The staff there urged the line of people to deposit their bags at the bag counter and I can’t believe my luck when I saw my ex-colleagues queuing up in the first few row of the queue. I went in front, say hi to them and ended up cutting queue.....haha...

There wasn’t much to purchase from but I did splurge alot of their skincare products. I loved their skincare set! I ended up purchasing a turquoise colour eyeshadow, (I have alot of eyeshadows but the colour is so pretty that I can’t
resist), Byelines skincare set, Ceramine Herbal Capsules, Ceramine Night cream( 2 set), 2 liquid eyeliner , mascara & Ardent Beauty perfume. Total damage? $188! I feel so broke after I make the payment!

I wandered around in Suntec and was waiting to kill my time. I had an appointment with Celine’s friend to pass her the X’mas Cards she had purchased for charity. It was 10.30am when I stepped out of the Elizabeth Ardent warehouse sale and my appointment time with her is 1.45pm. Shit! What am I going to do till 1.30pm? I decided to check out the Esplanade library instead carrying all my shopping bags in tow. I was amazed to find a large variety of DVDs and novels affiliated with Hollywood movies. I loved to read novels that had been transcript into Hollywood movies. I saw some people choose movie titles and proceeded to the self-help kiosk to borrow the DVDs. Monkey see, monkey do.. I also picked some titles off the shelf and proceeded to the kiosk to borrow the books. The
system doesn’t allow me to borrow the books and  went to the customer service for help. Imagined my embarrassment when I realized I had to be Library Premium Member where I paid annual fee of $21 in order to borrow the DVDs. Haiz.. where got free lunch in this world? After I make some calculations, I realised that it is actually quite worthwhile to invest $21 per year and get to enjoy unlimited DVDs for the whole year. Although not all movie titles are available there.. it is good enough and can keep entertained for one whole fucking year! Whoah~ My greatest discovery for
today! Cheap DVD rental at fantastic prices. Ha... I managed to meet up with Celine’s friend to pass her the X’mas cards before I headed home.

Saturday is supposed to be a partying night where people hit the clubs and drown themselves drunk and had a wild night of fun. Especially today is Zoukout where you are
able to catch a glimpse of the hottest hunks and babes in
their scantily clad bikini and swim wear. I’m those type of person where I won’t miss any fun and partying but ironically, I choose to stay at home for the night and spend my time watching DVDs that I had borrowed from the Esplanade library. I guessed is great to spend some time alone and with myself once in a while instead of hitting and checking out the party scene every Saturday.

Received a call from Davina and found out that Weide and her are heading up to KL during the weekend... Aarrgghh! I got 2 events over the weekend and I’m not able to go. I hate it! Missing all the fun there!

Sunday, 5 Dec

I loved Sundays!! It is the only day where I can relax and slack around the house. I take my own sweet time & pamper myself by doing facial & eye mask. It has been months sinceI last touched any facial masks... now you know how lazy I’m becoming lately....

Tried to watch ‘The Missing’ starring Tommy Lee Jones and Cate Blachat which I borrowed from Esplanade library. The movie was rather boring and I was watching halfway when it got ‘hanged’ in one of the scene. I tried to rewind, forward and play back and still encountered the same problem. I tried for several time to no avail and I gave up! Watched another movie starring GeYou ad Gong Li... the pace of the movie is pretty slow and I got fed up. Decided to reach for my long-neglected Thomas Harris novel instead....

Is good to do some readings for leisure as it nourishes my mind and soul. I have 2 more novels,”The Girl with Pearl Earrings” and ‘The World’s shortest story on Love & Death” stacking on my tables that I have not touched at all. I decided to stay at home & finished up the novels for these few weeks... Great & cheap entertainment for me on weekend... I’m so broke now!

Monday, 6 Dec

Early Monday morning, I’m alone in the department again! Yeah~ Hence able to write my overdue blog entries at ease. My computer at home has caught some kind of virus and hence not able to update my blog on a more frequent basis. Sob! Trying to recap over what had happened over the past one week.

Received a phonecall from Cleo magazine. They checked my personal particulars and told me that I’m one of the winner for their contest and yet they never state what kind of prizes I had won... I think I enter too many contest till I don’t know which one I had won.

I was reading Yanyi’s email(she & I conversed with each other on weekly basis through email) and she told me Benny & her were emailing and communicating with each other through friendster. I feel a tinge of jealousy that is unexplainable. Am I jealous of Yanyi or jealous that Benny contacted Yanyi? Don’t tell me I like Benny? Oh please, he is definitely not the type of guy I like and he is not suitable to be my boyfriend.

I’m afraid of falling in love and afraid of commitments. Afraid that my heart will be broken and can never be mend again. I feared about love and yet sometimes wished a Knight in Shining Armour will capture my heart someday.