Thurs, Oct 28

I cannot understand myself sometimes. Why am I so blur? I almost forget to did something important for my event and almost caused the event to be corked up.

I had an event at the end of October which is movie screening. Hence I need to inform Janet-my colleague in charge of all the rooms in my club to ‘reserve’ the theatrette for my event. U know what? I forget it totally about keeping her informed and reserving the venue. This morning, she came to my desk and reprimanded me on why I never keep her informed and luckily no one has booked the theatrette on my event day. I feel so guilty, upset about myself and angry on why am I so blur to forget these important detials?

I quickly send an email of apology and also dates and venues of my upcoming Nov movie screening. She reverted back saying I’m really lucky because a customer of hers has originally reserved the theatrette on Nov 20 (my Nov movie event) but had called her up last minute to change the dates to Nov 21.

Audrey shot an email to both Kelvin and me reminding us to check with Janet regarding about booking of rooms for our events... Feel even more worst about myself.

 I really cannot believe it.... I’m so incapable of small little stuffs like this...  My mood has been affected for half a day and the rainy weather represents my mood for early part of the day - Moody, unhappy, solemn.

I received yet another bomb later part of the day. I send a email to my colleague and lifeguards informing  them to reserve swimming pool lane for my snorkelling camp in December. They reverted back saying there is swimming class going on together with my snorkeling camp and she asked my department to double confirm it. I received an email scolding from Audrey again and this time she cc to lifeguards... imagine i'm being scolded by her and the whole world knows! She wanna embarass me izzit?

She scolded me saying why I never cc to her whenever I send out my email notifying duties to people. I did ask Audrey and Kelvin whether they got any swimming classes on Dec 3 before I do my publicity for my event and now she told me my event date clashes with her! I told her I did informed them way before I set my date for my event & she said there are always last minute changes in swimming classes for coporate bookings and I must let them know way in advance.. and MUST email them... hello? my activities timing and dates are clearly stated in our activities chart (where everyone in my department will have a copy each) and she is obviously pushing the blame to me and even scolded me and cc to lifeguards.. makes it seems like my mistake! I feel so pissed off.....

After work, went to L'oreal warehouse sales and my gosh! The queue is freaking long and all the good stuffs such as hair dye, powder are all gone! Only managed to buy cleanser, moisturiser & sunblock only. The stuffs i badly wanted like cleansing oil, liquid eyeliner are out of stock and i had somehow wasted my trip... Think I had a terrible day today! 

Feeling real sulky. Never received any interview email from SIA. This is the second time they never asked me to go for their interview. Am I not pretty enough and not good enough for their standard?

I went for their interview in April this year and I got kicked out in the second round coz I was too nervous. I tried sending my applications twice and never got called up from them. That feelings sucks big time when I know girls younger & prettier than me are receiving their interview notification from SIA.

Sun Oct 24,

Wake up at around 8.30am in the morning.. surprised, surprised! It was a rare sight of me waking up so early especially on a lazy Sunday! Anyway, I quickly called up security to remind them that I had skating course for members today and asked them to reserve a parking lot for the event to be held.

Feeling bored, went downstairs and read newspaper, went internet sufing and was browsing through a couple of websites when I chanced upon a modelling agency. Ok, I admit that I had dreams of becoming a model especially part-time to earn some extra income(not sleazy type please!)

Imagine my shock when I saw one of my primary school's friends photo in one of the website. Ok, she is quite pretty but I never except her to be a model. The website stated she is 1.7m... she got so tall meh? (although I have not seen her for don't know how many donkey years)

Mummy cooked instant roti prata & maggi mee for me... Frankly speaking, I'm not hungry at all and feel quite full but I have been such a glutton recently that I just can't resist eating even when I'm full... this has been happening for quite long and that is terrible. Am I having some kind of sickness? Do I need to see a doctor?



Sat Oct 23


Going to Wild Wild Wet today. Yeah~ I was dilly-dallying preparing my stuff & also took out 4 tickets for the Wild Wild Wet. Imagine my horror when I took a close look & saw that the expiry dates is till 30 November. I told the gals that the expiry date is end of 31 Oct and they are all so worried that they cancelled their outing appointment with other friends & Celine even risked of worsening her eye infection by agreeing to come

I quickly called up Celine and told her about it. She said since she had already prepared her stuff, might as well go today and she doesn't want to postpone this again.

I stepped out of the house at around 2pm and I had to meet them 3pm in Pasir Ris. My god! I will be terribly late. Imagine I had to walk all the way to the main road to take bus 70, alight at Seletar Camp. Board Bus 168 and alight at Tampines. Board Bus 518 to reach Wild Wild Wet. I had to take & change a total of 3 buses to reach that destination. Seeing that I'm terrible late, I decided to hail a cab. The whole journey takes about 10mins but the cab fare amounts to $9.10. Gosh! So freaking expensive!

I reached there at around 2.30pm, buy Toto lottery, read magazines in Cheers and then they finally showed up at 3.45pm. I'm a bit pissed off with them. If I know they are going to be late, I might as well take my own sweet time and come rather than wasting my $9.10 on cab and worrying for lateness.

Even when they arrived, it was raining and we feel a bit dejected about playing in wet weather. We asked the staff whether we are able to play the rides in these horrible weather and they said they do allow but one of the rides we badly wanted to play was on renovation. Sucks!

Yan, Celine and me discussed for about 20minutes debating whether we should play today and Aksel got frustrated. He told us he doesn't feel like playing & walked off despite we 3 gals persuaded him fervently.

Celine & me were worried Aksel was angry with the both of us since we like to dilly-dally and can't come up to a conclusion. Yanyi assured us he is in bad mood and hence he flared his temper a bit at us.

We sat in Kopitiam later and discussed about our next outing to Wild wild wet. I'm so disappointed. I wanted to play the rides so much and these things happened. It is hard for us to come again since the valid dates is til end of november. Early november Yanyi has part time job, 2nd week is Celine's exam, 3rd week is both Celine & Yan's menstraution period, 4th week I'm so caught up with my events in school holiday period that I can't go... how are we going to wild wild wet? SIANZZZZZ.........

We had nothing to do and took some funny and stupid shots of oourselves. It is so ironic! We took photos of us posing in front of the Wild Wild Wet signboard & we didn't get to play in the end! Boo Hoo!

3 beauties posing in front of Wild Wild Wet... haha.. ok don't puke.. =P

Me acting cute.... I didn't know I got clevage! Haha... =P

Peace!

Yeah~ Sesame Street! I'm like back to my childhood days!!

Afterwards. celebrate Bee's birthday once again(her actual birthday is on Oct 24) Shiryee feels so bad about bot joining us for celebrating Bee's birthday on friday that she suggested meeting up for dinner at Billy Bombers at 8pm.

I knew that they will be late and chatted with Yanyi & Celine til 9pm. Shiryee called & I found out that they just arrived! They are always like this... always late for appointment and stuff... still feeling sore(especially i'm so broke) about wasting my $9.10 on cab but I tried not to mention anything more to Yanyi & Celine. I don't like to cause tension and unhappiness among my friends.

I arrived at Billy bombers around 10pm and we proceeded to watch 'The Grudge'... Hollywood version of Japanese Horror Movie 'Ju-On'. I think the plot is silly & it doesn't really scared the hell out of me(although i will pulled up my jackets to below eye level when the scary scene is going to show soon). Just can't understand why Bee like horror movies so much... I would much prefer to watch 'Sky Captain & the world of Tomorrow' while drooling with cute cast like Jude Law and sexy babe Angelina Jolie.

Thur, Oct 21

I really hate myself sometimes. I don’t know  what I want and I’m a very confusing and hard to pleased person. Currently I found that I don’t have anymore passion in my work and my gosh! I only work half a year in events organizing. I’m trying to search for the reason behind my lack of passion. Is it the colleagues working there? Work environment? Monotonous job scope? Job scope not suitable for me? I don’t even know  what is happening! I grumbled that the job lacks of creativity sometimes but when they requires me to think of creative and interesting proposal, i feel lazy in using my brain and brainstorming all the concept.. Can u believe it? I’m so lazy til i dosen’t even want to use my brain.... just feel like slacking around at home whole day and watch DVD, magazines etc...No wonder I becoming more blur & stupid.... I feared about this and that  is why partially I’m trying to learn salsa dance and driving....My memory is deterioting and if i don’t learn anything new.. i guess i will have Alzheimer’s disease.

Am I having too little time for myself and slacking at home? I think so.. feel like taking long leave and just leave everything behind and doesn’t even wanna bother and care about everything in the world.

Am I suffering mid life crisis? I’m only 22 this year!

I’m trying to pinpoint out my wakness and i hope to change all that and become a better peson:

Indecisive, confusing, blur, stupid, lazy, stubborn, very low self-esteem, not confident, not a risk-taker, not meticulous, careless, messy, impulsive, doesn’t use my brain before taking actions/speaking

Wed 20 Oct,

I really had a busy day to start off with.. Phew! I received a phone call from Christine in TP. She asked me whether the wakeboarding event I'm handling is it going to go on. I replied yes and she added on, " But the date u published is on Hari Raya Pusa. It is on a holiday, will the centre still be opened?" I was stunned by her words. Seriously, I didn't know the date I organised falls on a holiday. Why am I so blur? I panicked and lied to her," Yes, it will still goes on. I have already checked with the centre."

I tried to find an alternative. I was intending to use E*treme Sports for the wakeboarding session but they are a bit greedy. Asking for minimum of 15 people in order to start. Hello? wakeboarding is an ad-hoc activity and how can I hit 15 people in a day? I was confident at that time in hitting the target but now seeing only a few people signed up and the events is less than a month away. I decided to use Will*am Sports where lifeguard Shafiq's friend is working there. (easier to talk things with them since we got connections. They agreed to conduct the course  even if there are few participants.)Hence, there is a change in venue and some changes here and there since I'm using different management.

I worried since shafiq's friend is a malay and hence won't be working on Hari Raya. I called the management and luckily they allowed me to conduct the course(finding a replacement coach) on that specific date. Otherwise I really don't know how to explain to members. I really think I sucks in events planning. I'm not a really orgainised person and can't foresee and anticipate what might happen, hence my events do cork up sometimes. Feel so low & down. I was busy making rearrangements for the wakeboarding course and boss calls up for projects meeting. Took away 1.5 hours of my time. After that, I need to attend fire safety talk in the afternoon... 1 hour wasted. I pacicked.. there are so many things to do.. changing of event posters within the clubs, printing of browsers, designing 3 events posters, making mailing labels and sending out boushures to participants... all these have yet to be done! AARRGGHH... so many things to do and my precious time is being wasted on attending talks, meetings etc.

I stayed back later than usual in office to do posters and my work stuff... anyway I have my 2nd salsa lesson so I can knock off later.

Left office at around 7.35pm. Boarded MRT and reach the dance studio at 8.15pm. Saw a couple of newbies and angmohs learning some steps...

Aaron teaches us do turning today and we have to partner up with the opposite sex and we pratise steps like basic, combo, swing etc. It is tedious and confusing. Need lots of communication fromthe opposite party and u must be able to read their signals on when to turn, change footsteps etc. Aaron commented I'm tensed up and should try to relax. I agreed.. I think I'm worried about forgetting the dance steps that is why I am so tensed up.

After the dance, Aaron urged us to go to a salsa bar in Amara Hotel where we can pratise salsa dance and pick up some new tips and techniques. We went there as a big group and I had fun partnering with Roy. I'm really lousy and have a hard time co-ordinating and reading his signals. Guess I need more pratise. I'm also not so used to salsa dancing in a club because I'm a 'chiongster' and frequent clubber of disco so when I see couples dancing salsa... feel weird... I feel like shaking my body and danced like I used to in disco but seeing the crowd there.. think I better not do anything to embarass myself.

Anyway it is really an eye opener for me since is the 1st time I stepped into a salsa club/bar and I'm determined to practise and be a expert in salsa dancing. Got inspired when I saw a young gal around my age dancing so sexily and natural....

Walked to the nearest MRT with Adrian and saw a couple of my salsa dance classmates. Chatted with Paul(if i remember correctly) and he asked me for my age. I asked him to guess and he said I looked like 22 year old.. hmm... thats strange since my colleagues all said I looked like 27-30yrs old especially with my permed hair now... I probed him and asked why he said I looked like 22. He replied that he can 'see it' from the way I behaved... so does that mean I behaved childishly? Haha...

Glad to know people commenting I look like my age. It is ironic because when I'm much younger, I always hoped people will thought I'm older than my usual age( an advantage when u go clubbing) but ever since I stepped into 20's.. just praying hard I looked younger or exactly like my age... Oh my god.. is age catching up with me? I never used to worry about this.....

Tue, Oct 19

Woke up slightly earlier abit as I have meeting in Yishun club. As I’m not very familiar with the way to Yishun club, decided to go there earlier to try locate the precise location. When I reached Yishun MRT, I feel a sense of familarity and I do miss Yishun abit. I used to live in Yishun for 1.5years with my ex-bf. (Yes! Living with him) I missed the times when I always rush for work and catch bus 804 and MRT. Even walking the underpass leading to Northpoint shopping centre bears some memories of me walking with my ex.

Reached Yishun club 10minutes earlier and luckily saw Catherine. Otherwise I have to ask around for directions leading to the General Office. I walked with Catherine & was amazed that Yishun club is so much more spacious and posh looking than our pathetic Tampines Club. Even their swimming pool seem much bigger than our olympic sized swimming pool. 

The swimming pool in Yishun club is nice right?

 I commented to Catherine that their office is so spacious and Catherine rebuked saying their fengshui is not good. I’m curious and asked her why.. she say got lots of ‘xiao ren’ and lots of back-stabbing in the ofice. I kinda agree with her.

Was checking my email and waiting for the manager to start the meeting. I feel so ‘out-of place’ and quiet in the meeting. I’m replacing Audrey as she is off and I know nothing about the meeting! So is better to keep my mouth tight shut throughout. I got stunned when they asked me some questions pertaining to the meeting and luckily all went quite smoothly for me. The meeting ends at 11.30pm and I rushed back to Tampines Club. By the time I reached back Tampines, it is near to 1pm. Time for my lunch!

Had Burger King with Aslena and she warned me Mani gonna scolded me as I forgotten to close the window after having lunch yesterday(we usually will switch off aircon and open the window during lunch hour)

Feel abit bored and do some net sufting. Surprised to see Nichola’s bitch friendster. Her status put married and she indicated that she is going to get married and no time to entertain anyone. I also found out she is not studying anymore. In her friendster profile, she wrote that she is a ‘tai-tai’ at home and is enjoying life while her hubby(my ex) loves her alot and finally she found the right guy in her life.

I suspect she purposely puts all these to spite me but I’m not angry at all. She is just a 16 year old childish kid who is willing to marry a good-for nothing scumbag. Anyway my ex doesn’t even have ‘N’ level and so do her... Good for them.. compatible. She is willing to give up her freedom for my ex and to tell the truth, I can’t do that.  I just can’t understand why some gals are willing to give up their freedom and their own ‘life’ for a guy when in love? Am I too selfish? I know I’m not a good girlfriend and I’m glad my ex managed to find a gf who treats him well. I don’t really hate that Nichola bitch now although I’m still abit bitter over her snatching my guy.

 I’m not going to marry so young and I doesn’t want to marry someone who doesn’t have financial security and not mature enough to take care of me.

My friend  Charlene commented I’m not suitable to be in a relationship and I also agreed. I have too many things to do and which guy in the world is so faithful to wait for me? Singaporean guys are selfish and once you don’t have time to accompany them, they will find lotsa excuses to taste forbidden fruits. I’m sick of this. Shiryee always say wanna intro guys to me but seriously I don’t need them right now. Although I might feel lonely at times, I’m someone who doesn’t even love & understand myself, how to expect someone to love & understand me?

Was trying to clear my junk emails in office as my mailbox has exceeded its storage space and come upon an interesting old junk email Janet sent me. Oh god! Was sent on July 6. It is a test about your love attitude and my results are:

It is so true & accurate. It states my current views on love. I don’t even know what I want now.

My brother told me our house got snake. I gotten so scared that I don't dare to sleep alone at night. Sucks.. sometimes I hate the place I'm living in. It is quite deserted, 'ulu' and inconveniece for me plus got so many these kinda stange creatures around.

Mon, Oct 18

Realised I have lots of things in mind to do. I'm trying to jot down the list of things I hope to achieve/fulfill preferably in 2 years time.

1. Finished my fucking damn graduation project and awared with advanced diploma in Mass Comm

2. Get my bloody driver's license preferably by end of the year

3. Enrolled in university(part time) and do degree in mass comm and double major Journalism in Chinese language.

4. Be an expert in salsa dance

5. Pursue my interest in learning French language. I love Asian guys who speak fluent French.... so damn sexy!

6. Hope to polish my limited knowledge in Japanese language.

7. Able to perform difficult stunts in roller blading

8. Get a PADI scuba diving cert (I'm longing to go diving in the open sea!)

9. Learn wakeboarding

So many things to do and yet so little money on hand....  =(

Aloysius was asking me why am I making myself so hectic. Coz i always seems to be so busy that I didn't even have time to have coffee session with him(same with guoyi too). Yup, my life now is rather 'occupied' at the moment. Working full time, studying part time, learning driving and salsa dance. Well, I don't know... I just feel my youth is limited. I just wanna do all these things to make myself happy and time is limited for me (especially woman)

I think the only hinderance that prevents me to achieve all these things is money! Yes!! Money is the root of all evil but I so badly need it now........

Monday Oct 18

Feeling lazy, wear my spectacles to work today. I was thinking to myself, since I’m not meeting anyone today after work, can be ugly for a day. just when I went and clocked in for work... saw Huber from Toa Payoh Club sitting at my club’s lobby. Aarrgghh.... he spotted me wearing my spectacles. I feel so self-conscious that I doesn’t want to walk pass him. Shit! I forget that today is SQ retreat session where all the different clubs will gather in my club for 2 days briefing. Although I’m not involved, all the people from other clubs will come over to Tampines and I doesn’t want to face them in my ugly state! I quickly proceed to wear my contact lenses in my desk. Kelvin walked past and saw me wearing my contact lenses and give me that weird look...whatever!

Today is not a work efficient day... I feel so bored at work and doesn’t feel like working... must be monday’s blue!

Audrey told me that both of us are not deployed for charity golf event in NSRCC. Heng!! Although I will be paid OT but I don’t feel like working on a Sunday. Let me keep my fingers crossed!

Meeting Aloysius for a swim at my club after work. I feel so guilty about eating so much and not doing any exercise at all. Must burn of those fats baby!

I tried to squeeze into my swimsuit that I wore donkey years ago (actually the last time I wear is in secondary school) I'm amazed that I still can squeeze into it except that it feels a little tight.

Swim for 10laps and proceed to go for suana. The heat is killing me but I bear with it as I heard that staying in sauna for about 15minutes can aid in slimming.. so die die must stay in for 15 minutes.

When I finished bathing and was checking my handphonen messages, received an sms 'scolding' from Audrey. She said I should sign in my name before using gym facilities and not after that. I feel so sulky! It was NOT MY FAULT! I did ask the gym instructor saying i'm only saying the sauna and hence need to sign in? He said no need and I feel that I have been accussed and wronged of something where I am innocent....

I was on the way home when I realise something very important. I had a meeting in Yishun early tomorrow and I forget to bring home some of the documents... Oh man! That sucks big time!

Sunday, Oct 17

Woke up at around 10am... that is early on a Sunday morning! Bo Bian! Gonna meet up with my year 1 polymates Herman, Jeffrey, Yanyi & Celine. Supposingly to meet up with them at around 2pm in CityHall. I take my own sweet time in taking a shower, putting on makeup etc. My style today is sporty theme! Wearing my new Fila T-shirt that I just bought at the warehouse, with mini-skirt & white sport shoes. I also tied up my hair in a pony-tail and I feel so young! Hmm... I always wear my office attire til I feel older than my usual age...  I can meet the gang earlier but I was waiting for my elder brother to wash his car and drive me out to YCK MRT. By the time I reach MRT, is already 2pm... Celine sms me asking where am I... I lied to her saying I’m on my way... =P Actually I doesn’t feel like meeting up with Herman & Jeffrey although I’m thrilled at meeting the gals. The guys are so boring and I think I will have a hard time finding topic to talk to them.

By the time I reach there, is already 2.30pm... ha.. heng I’m not the last one to arrive. Yanyi is still at home! I noticed Jeffrey & Herman both turned chubbier with a fat tummy! However, Herman also become more ‘hunky’ especially he dyed his hair and ditched off his traditional spectacles. He looks a bit like HK actor He Jia Jin. Celine & I find excuses to go somewhere else and keep the guys waiting... very bad hor? We slowly went to ladies, chit-chat, browse the stores and finally went back to MRT to find them.  Since we got nothing to do, i suggested going to Pacific Coffee while awaiting for Yanyi. They agreed and we were half-way through when Yanyi called me up. She sounded hostile and obviously in a bad mood. Cannot blame her.. suffering from PMS....I told her where we were heading to and asked her to meet us there.

We ordered some drinks and I rewarded myself a huge cup of Macadamia Latte. I like its aroma and the sweet aftertaste of the coffee. We chit-chat quite a while and as usual, I’m the more chatty one breaking the ice everytime since Yanyi & Celine are quieter. We catch up with each other, what are they doing, news and updates about others etc. The guys also shared stories of their army camp stories. I got so scared by their spooky tales that I don’t even dared to go to ladies and  pee alone... hahaha... I also notice Jeffrey is more chatty as compared to last time in poly.

After coffee, we wanted to head to Marina Square for bowling. However, we found out that the area has been renovated... Sucks!

Since we got nothing to do, we headed to Marche for early dinner. Yanyi, Celine & me ordered grilled chicken, mashed potato, rosti and mushroom soup... total cost about $10 per person. Ok lah, not very expensive.

After dinner in Marche, we were thinking of ideas on how to ‘shake off’ the guys as we wanted to head to KTV without them. On our way where we ‘supposingly’ head back home, I told them, “I need to purchase some stuffs in Watsons. U all go back first.” Yanyi and Celine quickly grabbed the oportunity and said,” We follow you!”.... The guys left with no choice and have to go home themselves. Yanyi & Celine praised me of being witty... haha... actually I really intend to check out some items in Watson.... =P

We shopped around and I saw a top in Giordano I really liked and bought it off straightaway.. AArrhgghhh... I just purchased some clothes in Fila warehouse and now this! I’m $30 poorer after paying for the top. We also checked out cameras and I’m aiming for the Olympus Mini digital camera... it cost $600 over! Think I need to starve and save for that camera!

We took a cab and went to KTV somewhere in Outram. On our journey there, saw my dance studio and feel so excited! I can’t wait for my Salsa Dance Class and also I can’t wait to dance with my instructor Aaron.. Haha! Aaron is not handsome but he is charming... and he smells nice too when I partner dance with him. I like guys who smells nice. Reminds me of my ex- Don in our short-lived relationship.

We reached KTV about 8pm and sang our heart out til 1am.... It has been so long since I last sing KTV with them... I missed singing KTV with them and shirley. Ever since shirley got attached.. I have been seeing less and less of her.  During our KTV session, Celine’s bf keep smsing her, calling her. I feel abit frustrated for her. I asked her whether her bf is getting more & more possesive? She nodded her head but defend him by saying he is good enough to let her come out and meet us. Yanyi & I don’t agree but we just keep our mouth zipped and doesn’t want to comment anything.

Celine & I shared a cab home after the KTV... cost about $18... feel even more broke... Imagine i need to go wild wild wet wif yanyi they all next week plus my colleagues wedding in Yishun end of the month.... sucks...

Wed Oct 13

Finally! My first lesson in salsa dancing... actually I was reconsidering whether to go for salsa class since i will be joining alone and shiryee cannot accompany. Sob! I left office at 6.50pm thinking i will be late. I had a hard time finding the place. Nearly lost my way but luckily I asked around or else I will be very lost... i'm a direction idiot man!

When I reached the place, saw 2 guys sitting there.. abit disappointed coz i realised the guys there are not cute & hot enough! Oh my god! I'm extremely bad! We did some self-introduction and gotten to know some of them better. June came over a short while and we started chatting. She was pretty friendly and nice in person. She looks the same as pictures posted in the web but she really looks really slim in real-person. I wonder is it due to the frequent salsa dancing? If it is so, I'm gonna get salsa-crazy and pratise it hard for the sake of my figure.. heehee...

The class starts at 8.30 and saw quite a few angmohs.. never know angmohs are into salsa too! I thought the class starts at 8pm? Wah lau.. if like this, should have my own sweet time and taken dinner too! Shit! make me rush like an idiot after work and worried like hell I will be late.

Learn a couple of steps in salsa and I think I'm really clumsy and lousy and stupid! Initially thought is simple but when u danced with a partner, I get all clumpsy and mixed up my steps. Aaron came over to dance with me and my body feels so stiff! I think I'm the worst student there! Feel quite low-confident of myself... Nevertheless, it was quite fun and actually I was looking foward to my next salsa class!

Gotta go sleep.. my gosh! Is already 12.13am liao!

Oct 11 Monday 00.43am

Updated my blog! Also played around and added features like music video from Maroon 5 (I like them!), change fonts, background colour layouts etc. Feel so satisfied!  =)

Oct 10 Sunday

I feel so tired and 'shagged'! I woke up late at around 9.15am. I had a shock when I saw the alarm clock! I supposed to have 2 events: Inline skating Beginner course and Charity event in Pasir Ris Park. My heart almost stopped beating for a second. I was abit worried about my inline skatting course as I promised the instructor that I will be there.... Aargh....I quickly proceed to change my clothes without brushing my teeth. I know that sounds gross but I'm really late that I just stepped out of my house in a really unkempt manner.

I was walking 20minutes to the main road and I still haven't seen a fucking cab! Where are they when I most need them? I thought I might happened to spot one and no need to walk to the main road that is 20 minutes distance away. That sucks and I had indeed walked for 20 minutes and was at the main road, flagging the cab like a mad woman... Still no cab in sight.... I waited for nearly 10 minutes when a lady cab driver stopped. I hopped in, told her I'm going to Pasir Ris Park Car park A and she told me in her hoarse voice saying she don't know how to go... Oh my god.. why am I so suay! She said she knows where is Pasir Ris Park but don't know where is CarPark A. Nevermind... Just go there.. I'm late already! I called up May, my colleague from Toa Payoh and apologize to her and also called up Jeffrey who is one of the volunteer I supposed to brief them in Tampines Club today! My initial plan was to reach my club at around 8.30am... meet the volunteers and tell them what they supposed to do.. then they proceed to pick up the intellectual disabled people from Moral Home and I stayed behind and make sure my inline skatting course is ok before I go to Pasir Ris Park... All my plans are cocked up now...

I took off my shoes and I had 3 blisters on my feet... Is so sore and red! Arrrg! Worst thing is I'm not wearing any socks and the friction between my feet and the shoes had caused the outer skin of my feet to peel and revealed red, raw skin... eeeewwww....

The driver reached Pasir Ris Park and we can only find Carpark C-F but no Carpark A... I panicked and the cab driver keep on asking me turn where... so irritating that I feel like screaming at her... Nah... We were going circles and my cab fare which is originally $8.80 had jumped til $10.10... heart pain! I asked the driver lend me her street directory and realised it didn't states the carpark... aarghh... wait a minute... me sotong head realised there has markings and indicate where is Carpark A... finally.. tell driver is near Loyang Resort House and she shot back.. , "I don't know how to go..." What? I tell her ok.. go to NTUC resort.. go straight all the way and u will reach that venue... she drove and we indeed managed to find the place.. total damage? $13.70... I wasted $4.90! Can eat 1 Burger King meal!

Luckily Tampines cahpter, shirly and zaini come and help me or else so paiseh! Tampines club only have 3 representative! I interact with the volunteers and disabled people, do some silly games, feed them etc... I feel a bit extra and out of place... I don't know any of them plus it seems more like a Toa Payoh event instead of joint project with us Tampines Chapter... feel abit down....

Finsihed the whole event at around 12.30pm... Reached Toa Payoh to unload the logistic material, and proceed to take MRT back home. I oversleep til Khatib... my god! Take the train back to io Chu Kang and total of 15 minutes wasted. Booked my driving pratical theory at SSDC... and by the time reached home... 3plus liao.... wah lau!

Surf net, checked email, friendster and finally go take a nap at 6pm and was woken up by my bro's gf coz i'm sleeping at my bro's room...

Still feeling blur and tired now!

Oct 9 Saturday

Woke up at around 10am.... Wah so tired after partying at liquid Room yesterday. Take a shower, changed my clothes, do my hair and time flies... is 12pm already! Wah! Quickly went down to cook maggi mee for my lunch. I call my brother asking him whether he is going out.. he say he is and so I waited for him while slowly reading newspaper, eat my mee etc... 12.30pm already and he hasn't come down yet! I panicked and I'm supposed to reach my club at 1.30pm coz my inline skatting beginner course event starts at 1.30pm... arrg! I went up, knocked his door and asked what time he is coming out... he said soon... by the time we left the house.. is already 12.50pm! My journey from house to office via bus took 30mintes lor exclude waiting time... abit mad at him... then he offered to drive me to my Tampines Club... I curious and asked him.. u no need to go work today? He say.. he only need to take his laptop coz all his works are saved there..

Reached at around 1.15pm.. already saw some member and take down their attendance. The inline skating instructor is late and hmm... the mamanger Ken.. I spoken to him before over the phone.. is not bad loking... quite boyish.. think he looks like 28yr old...

The lesson begins and I walked round the club and chit chat with the life guards...

By the time everything finishes.. is already 3plus... I slowly take bus 518 to Orchard. Walked pass Hello Singtel Shop(former Espirit) and saw Shen Wei Jun(Nick Shen) the star search winner few years ago. He looked exactly the same on TV except that he had obvious blemishes on his face. I could spot it 100m away and shorter in real person.  He looked at me for a while when he was hosting.... haha... feel so good! being 'bio' by yandao and somemore actor wor!

Went to Lancome event and I was registering for the 'Miss Photogenic' contest.. I don't know why but just don't feel good and pretty today.. plus all the waiting today.. i abit sianz liao... the makeup artist who did makeup chooses purple for my eyeshadow... this is the third time I'm being make up by professional and they use purple! Sianz! The hairstylist who did my hair... i don't like.. looks like taitai type of hair... high high... sucks... coz i don't feel good and pretty.. the photos turns out not nice.. worst thing? I think the same photographer in BodyShop makeover.. feel abit paiseh.. think i'm not going to join any makeover contest for the moment...

The pics indeed turns out not nice and i don't foresee myself bagging the awards. The IT girl processing my image from memory card seem abit hostile that I didn't purchase any photos.. i don't look nice so why purchase?

Meet Elvin, Bee, Weide and shiryee at Paragon. Going to celebrate Elvin's birthday... had dinner at Din Dai Fung... Elvin says their xiao long bao is nice... i tried and was thinking nice meh? Think i don't like to eat xiao long bao.......

Had sinful haagen daas ice cream and was making fun of the sissy waiter...

We wanted to talke cork and Elvin suggest going to Equinox.. abit excited coz never went there before... when we reached there.. was amazed by the magnificent sigh! The bar is located at 70 floor! Wow! The music is nice but the crowd there... hmm.... like those cheapstake low class crowd.. is so ironic...the bar is so high class and posh but the crowd there... yucks! Alot of angmohs and philippino(i guess) were hugging each other... weide who emerged out from toliet told us he overheard angmohs saying... get that chick! She is so cheap... hello what does cheap mean? sometimes i feel that some gals who are they degrading themselves and gives people a cheap image? Who have dignity and no wonder ang mohs think we singaporean gals are 'cheap!'... feel abit pissed off....

I was so tired that afetr clubbing, i fall asleep in the sof at Equinox level 1... Elvin send all of us back and I was sound asleep and Shir has to wake me up... feels blur blur and thanked elvin for sending me back home....

By the time I sleep is alread 4am and I need to wake up at 7am! 3 hours of sleep only!

Oct 8 Fri

Feels so sianz.. actually was considering whether to go for facial coz i'm not used to going back home so early...give up the idea coz i'm so broke now!

Reaced home and surf the net til my bro came back...  He asked me whether I wanna go to Liquid room... hey.. never been there before.. why not? But no kaki leh.. only my bro friends...

I sms wenlong, benny etc and wenlong told me he is in mohammad sultan with friends.. great! Can find him later

I was abit confused and was considering whether to go clubbing since none of my kai is going with me and i don't know any of my bro's friend... Shir just called me... she was crying and I asked her what happened... she never say anything and said she is ok... I asked her she quarrel with weide izzit and she replied ya.... she said she will call me back later... i was worried abt her and sms her asking her out for kopi... she nv reply... i called her... she nv reply... i send her a sms and my bro rushing me coz he has to go out anytime... i quickly grab my bag and go.. intending to find shir...

Was int he car when i called several time and she nv picks up.... when shir finally calls back.. told me she is going back to find weide settle their arguiements... sianz...

Meet up some of my bro's friend and saw cat... my bro's friend.. always feel abit uneasy when i saw him....

Wow.. liquid room is happening! Abit like zouk but the crowd is older... best thing is ladies get free entry on friday night! Great! The guys there.. 80% of them veri cute! I'm like back in HK where there are lots of handsome and cute guys around us!

Partied til 3am... went to meet wenlong for a while since he actually persuaded his friends to stay til 3am as he thought i'm coming over to Dbl O to join him... feel abit paiseh.... he commineted i look great today? Really? haha... makes my day... i think i'm a  very bimboistic person... comments about me pretty will makes me very happy....

My brother send some of his friends back and we finally went to Upper Thomson to have their famous roti prata... by the time we finished and reach home... 5am liao! Wah liew... so tired til i never bath and remove my makeup!

Oct 6 Wednesday

Half day in office today. Boss wants me to attend meeting in SSC for children's participation in sports...

Had trouble finding the place and decided to take a cab instead.. realsied i have been spending alot of money on cab recently...

Reached there about 10 minutes earlier... do my makeup in the toliet and enter the room.. saw a few people and I'm paiseh to interact with them... feel abit out of place.. Hussein from TP came and alas! Have another person to accompany me. The meeting is boring.. all statistics.. and ended at around 3.30pm.. Hussen drives me to the Kallang MRT and i decided to take MRT to Orchard and shopped around. I got driving lesson at 8.50pm and have to waste my time in Orchard.. went to library and finally found the book i wanted to borrow.. Silence of the Lamb by Hannibal... but i got no time to read leh... don't care.. borrow anyway

At around 7.30pm.. left orchard to go YCK for my driving lesson. Was disappoited that car no. 66 not teaching me... haiz!

3/10/04 Sunday

Just came back from Japan Airline interview. The interview was rather ok and took about a total of 5 minutes? Interviewers asked a series of questions such as why I wanna join Japan Airline etc.. standard questions. I don't think I did well in my interview and they said they will send a letter to me if i'm being selected for second round of interview. Gheez... to tell the truth, I'm in a dilemna if i'm being selected.. i feel like working in Events for at least a year... coz it will look good on my resume ya? Plus, my parents disapproved me of working as an air stewardess. My dad opposed saying this job is for people who has no education and job scope is like a maid... why are they so 'close-minded'?

Received a call from my irritating auntie. She kaypoh wanna know what am I working as. I didn't want to tell her and she told me my cousin Linda is working in advertising firm.. so? I tell myself no matter what, I definitely will live a better life than all these irritating cousins and relatives I have... they sucks big time!

2/10/04 Saturday

Finally a rest day for me to rest at home and slack. Feels so good! It has been ages since I stay at home and slack! I woke up at around 11.30am, have maggi mee as breakfast, surf internet, watched my second brother gf's magazine and then also watched scary movie 3... How I hope I have more days and time like this?

P/S: Today is Nichola's bitch birthday. I hope she is spending her miserable birthday alone. I can't believe I still hate her til now.

1/10/04

Meet Shiryee and weide at Fish & Co after my work. It is the first day where I have to work til 6.30pm. Feels quite ok and I welcome that changes. It means I have Saturday and Sundays as rest days. Shiok!

We chit chat for a while and watched White Chicks. Damn bloody funny although it is a trashy film. Wanted to go cheong but since weide don't feel like going to cheong. No choice have to go home early. Managed to catch the last MRT train which is amazing!