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Nickname: SpicyCoolGal Birthday: 23 September Star Sign: Virgo/Libra Personality: Happy-Go-Lucky, Blur, Procrastinate, Careless, Paranoid, Messy, Friendly, Stubborn Fav Actor: Ethan Hawke Fav singer/band: Jewel, ColdPlay, Bon Jovi.



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Guys Are All The Same!!
05.30.04 (10:52 am)   [edit]
Was surfing around when I chanced upon my friend's webpage in friendster. Well, this guy Joey is shir's bf's friend. We met in Double O once in Feb and he wanted my number from shir's bf(john). I gave him my contacts after I questioned john whether he got any ulterior motive. He told me that he will give Joey my number but he don't know what will happen in future. So I deceided to give Joey my number as there is no harm in having another friend. Joey contacted me and we soon began to exchange sms... He dated me out and we went out a couple of times. He is chasing me and wanted to have a long term r/s with me. I'm a bit skeptical because I'm just out of a shitty r/s and I don't wanna commit myself into yet another r/s so soon. On the other hand, I don't like Joey as he is a very frequent clubber. I love to club occasionally but I can't accept my bf who is a 'cheongster' who goes clubbing every weekend.. I won't feel secure with this type of guy plus we have no 'sparks' and chemistry at all. He professed his love to me a few times but I told him to give up on me and don't wait for me. We were still contacting each other til end of April when he suddenly stopped smsing me. I feel weird and didn't think otherwise...... I meet up with Shir, Bee & John for dinner 2 weeks ago and John asked why I don't wanna contact Joey. I say I never and told him is Joey who doesn't want to contact me. I saw his friendster with his newly uploaded photo with his gf and him. I saw the date which dated around early may. No wonder he stopped contacting me. I feel abit cheated... don't know why.... if a guy is chasing a gal......How come they chase them for such a short period and quickly target another one so soon? Hmm... Can't blame him for chasing the gal but I think isn't it abit too fast to chase another gal? That means he doesn't really love me at all and chase me because he wanna get attached to a r/s.... I'm not eating sour grapes but i'm stating matters of fact... guys are all the same!! Even B who is chasing my friend Bee initially have interest in me til he saw Bee in Double O...... Shir told me that Benard is trying to date Bee out and I feeling numb... i don't wanna care anymore... Feel so sick and tired of this... I'm hoping that Bee & Bernard won't get together because imagine I have to put on a front and pretend to be happy for them? If Bernard & Bee is going to be together, I guessed maybe I have to shun them away...... I feel so lonely... who can understand me in this world?
 
Miss Him
05.30.04 (8:16 am)   [edit]
30/5/04

I waked up in the noon and suddenly feel loss.... Wanna go out and get some shopping done!! Especially with all the sales happening all over Singapore, makes me more tempted to shop there! I'm just plain lazy to step out of the house and also no kaki to accompany me. Sad!

Watched the movie 'Phone Booth' which I lended from my supervisor. Is a boring show and I alsmost fall asleep... my supervisor even say is quite exciting and he rates it 7 out of 10... Hmm.. men and women have different views on movies
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29/5/04
I meet up with my ex bf's mum yesterday. To get partial amout of money for PS2. She told me that my ex has passed his basic & advanced theory and is learning pratical driving now. I feel so jealous. When I'm with him, I nagged at him to learn driving but he just refused. Why he suddenly so enthusiastic and wanna learn driving now? I'm jealous of him tat he had passed his advanced while I haven't. I'm plain jealous that he has surpassed me on this.

I lied to his mum that I had a bf and she seems supiscious coz she asked me twice... i guessed i'm not a good liar

I don't know why but suddenly I missed him. Missed his presence and the times we are together. I'm blaming myself why can't I just keeping thinking about how nasty and heartless he treats me 5 months ago? To say those hurtful words in order to be with 16 year old childish gal? Why? Why???

I finally learned my pratical driving and yesterday was my first lesson. I'm so excited and it is so fun to drive!! Haha... i really hope I can get the hang of it and passed this on 1st try. I know I'm ambitious!

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26/5/04

I feel so stressed!! My events has very low turnout and a few might be cancelled... Aaarggghhh.... Especially my colleague whom she registered her son for 1 of the courses I'm in charge in. She keep emphasizing to me try not to cancelled the even and boost the turnout coz she doesn't wanna dissappoint her son... my god... in tremedous pressure from boss, everyone and myself

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25/5/04

Went to see Black Eyed Pea concert!! Actually I'm not really keen to go coz I'm not a big fan of their plus I only like two songs from them. But I already promised my friend to go with her so can't disspoint her..

Before the concert I went to eat Mac with her and her male friend who is watching the concert with us.

I was shocked to see her because she has turned quite pretty!! It has been almost 2 years since I last seen her. It is quite a pity because she is so pretty but she turned into a lesbian and has a girlfriend... too bad.. i admire her dressing sense and even wanna copy her!!

The black eyed pea concert is so boring... maybe is because I son't like rap music and 90% of the musc is all abt rap music... waste my $$$... luckily i get the cheapest tickets......the highlight of the concert is the last moment when they perform their hit 'Where is the love'..... other than that... the concert is plain boring... I even think the local band that is opening act for black eyed pea performs much better than them.....

After the concert, on our way home, we had a hard time hailing a cab, when we were just crossing the road, I saw my friend Eric in a bus.. hmm.. veri shocked coz nv expect to see him... it never crossed my mind that he goes to black eyed pea concert too until he emailed me the next day telling me the concert was lousy. I thought he happens to take bus 16 after meeting up with friends and the bus happens to pass through indoor stadium.
 
Boring Boring!!
05.22.04 (2:33 am)   [edit]
22/5/04
Is a boring saturday. I'm pratically like a pig. Eating, sleeping & lazing all day long. Is quitr rare for me to stay 'guai guai' at home on a saturday. My body deserves a rest anyway+ i'm super broke. Went to book my PDL in the morning. Quite excited as I'm thought of learning driving excites me!!

21/5/04
My eldest brother's big day today!! Wake up extra early at 7.30am to prepare myself. My parents literally have to keep banging on my door to get me in the car on time. I first time saw my brother in a long sleeve shirt with tie & I feel so amused! I have no time to do my makeup & have to do it all in the car on the journey to ROM. luckily I'm being trained to apply full makeup in 5 minutes. Haha...

I don't feel any excitement and feel abit bored at the ROM... all we do is wait & wait plus I don't really know anyone there. So, I keep on sticking with my parents. One thing to make me happy tough is that my brother's wife's god,other praised that I'm pretty!! Haha... feel so happy!

After the ROM, have dimsum at Redstar restaurant. Pretty nice and I ate quite a lot... I guess I might wanna ask my friends go there eat dim sum next time. Is a tad bit expensive.

I was supposed to book the PDL for driving but I ended up went to have facial at Simei. It has been long time since I visited there and one of the beatician who is new told me my complexion is not as good as last time and it has alot of blackheads and bumps on the face. Hmm.. I'm amazed she is the same age as me and already have 2 kids already. Wow... maybe tats a signal I must find a bf faster & get married soon... hahaha.. hmm... anyway i enjoyed my freedoom n single status too much that it will be hard for me to get attached again unless the guy is willing to give me complete freedom

While having facial the beautician recommend me to go take up laser package because I have acene scars in my cheeks area. I'm hesistating because I'm super broke. After consultation from a rather cute doctor, I give in and sign up for the package. My god! It cost $2k and I guessed I really have to scrimp & save over the next month. I also hope the laser will improved my complexion and makes the money spend worth....
 
2nd entry
05.16.04 (7:19 am)   [edit]

It has been quite some time since updating my diaries entries here. I have been kind of busy... plus plain lazy to write another diary entry here. Ha... It has been quite a 'fruitful' month for me, I went chalet with my colleagues, played tennis with my good friends etc... Is good to be busy.... I love being single and all the freedoom I have now... I led a tortourous life for 1 year 8 months with my ex bf. Restricted & control my life. I hate it!! My biggest regret is not leaving him earlier... I have no more feelings for him anymore. Just find that he is just a pathetic little boy who is self-centred and just can't take care of a gal... LOSER Went clubbing with my friends last friday. Actually I don't really feel like going but since I have already promised my good friend Yan to go, can't go back on my promise. I called Shir, her bf & gang to go clubbing with me. It was then they called bernard along... I have a crush on Benard and I know he likes another friend of mine - Bee. I was thinking whether to avoid them when initially I thought Bee will be coming too. Shir * gang will be teasing Benard Wif Bee.... I hate to act put on a front act & also to join in teasing as well... I breathed a sigh of relief when at the last moment Bee is not coming.... Shir passed Bee's contact number to Ben and he started contacting her. I feel upset but can't do anything except to put up a false front. I suspect Ben thinks I like him because when Shir tease him & Bee, he gave me a look which i don't know whether it has any hidden meaning?


Went out with Bee one week later and had dinner with Shir & bf in Far East. We ordered lots of food + my favourite wantan... Yummy!! Watch Van Helsing with Bee while Shir and bf head to Double O to celebrate a friend's bday....



The movie was not bad. Kate Beckingsale looked so gorgeous & hot in it! I think she is in her late 20's or early 30's. How I hope I also looked so babelicious when I'm in my 30's. Heehee... Hugh Jackman doesn't look so droolsome in the movie. =(


When Bee & I will taking the escalator up to proceed to the cinema threaters, she read her sms and smile... I suspect it was Benard & being curious, asked her who is tat... she reply it was Benard & he ask stupid question... I had to laugh it off & say it must be a very lame tatic to chase a girl... after that I try to skip tht topic & try not to mention the topic of BENARD....... I'm feeling guilty because I'm secretly praying that Bee & Benard won't be together... am I veri bad? Bee is one of my good friend & I hoped to see her getting attached to a nice guy. Besides that Bee & Benard is interested in each other..... I feel veri confused....

 
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